But, I haven’t always been the postpartum body recovery expert and Master Trainer that I am today. I didn’t know 14 years ago that my program would prove real-world evidence of incredible results for tens of thousands of women. 14 years ago, I saw only weakness, failure and shame in my own body.
In 2005 I was a 34-year old personal trainer, super fit, super ripped, and pregnant with my first child, working out with my clients right up to the third trimester.
On 6th October my daughter arrived. After 28 hours’ labour, I suffered massive hemorrhaging and needed urgent and invasive medical intervention.
Less than 2 years later, my son was born, and his birth was glorious, he emerged and literally crawled up me to feed. [all the feels]
But quickly everything changed. Searing pain as the haemorrhage came again and this time it was vicious.
I remember the paramedic’s face over me during the emergency helicopter ride, sweat pouring down his face under his helmet, urging me not to close my eyes when all I wanted was for him to go away, so I could fade away.
I felt broken. Powerless, useless at performing the most basic of female human functions. Nothing had felt instinctive or natural.
Maybe your own birth felt out of your control? Or maybe since you had your babies, even if that was a long time ago, your body just doesn’t feel like ‘you’ anymore.