Wendy Powell

Birth Shame, Guilt or Feelings of Failure After Birth

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Birth shame or feelings of failure or guilt remain all too common. Shaming around ‘natural’ child birth, intervention, c-section and birth choices is very real. Direct or unconscious, these messages are constant from social media as well as medical professionals, friends and family. Our body is extraordinary, powerful and strong, regardless of how you give birth. We know this, but we don’t always believe it.

Many of us plan for and think about how our birth experience will be. Reading everything we can get our hands on to prepare. We picture who will be by our side, how we will cope, what support we would like and we feel fearful, excited or both.

But for many of us, reality doesn’t quite play out as planned, and emergency medical intervention, including c-section, are common. Many c-sections are planned and positively chosen and for some, even emergency intervention is simply welcomed and gratefully accepted.

But others feel failure or shame around their imagined inability to ‘perform’ at labour and childbirth in the way they expected.

My experience of birth shame

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Wendy Powell, MUTU Founder and CEO

“Neither of my birthing experiences turned out at all the way I had planned. I was a strong 34-year-old personal trainer when I gave birth to my daughter in 2005. The final hours of a 28-hour labour involved emergency medical intervention, which left me fading in and out of consciousness, hemorrhaging. I was told that the surgeon had been ‘up to his elbows’ in my body and in my blood.

I was completely rocked. Sad and bitter that my preparation, fitness and strength seemed to have counted for nothing. Determined that with my second I would  ‘do it right’. But labour two years later brought me even closer to actually losing my life.

I hemorrhaged again, this time much more acutely. Had it not been for the paramedics urging me to stay conscious as I was flown by helicopter to a larger hospital, and the work of surgeons on the day, I wouldn’t be here at all. Eternally grateful as I feel now, at the time I simply felt weak and broken, like my body had failed me again.

So I too experienced the belief that my body had let me down. That it hadn’t achieved what was supposed to be intuitive and natural. I felt as though I could no longer trust my body, as though it had deserted me when I needed it most.

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Disconnected from my body

As a fit and strong personal trainer dedicated to self-care and respect for our bodies’ abilities and strengths, I utterly disconnected. I neither trusted nor loved my body. It was a long road of not only physical recovery, but also mental health issues and rebuilding self-esteem.

This is why I connect so deeply to the stories of women who feel any sense of ‘shame’ around birth that is medicalized or traumatic.”

Feeling out of control and fearful is not uncommon for women looking back on their birthing experiences. When intervention is necessary, when trauma occurs, then we are survivors, not failures.

C-Section birth shame

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 C-sections are common, and not always a ‘plan-b’ or last resort. A C-section can be a positive and conscious choice and may be the medically safest option for a multitude of reasons or circumstances. Around 1 in 3 births in the US are by caesarean.

C-section birth is ‘normal’ and safe. It can be calm and positive just as any other experience. Extreme anxiety is often the result of feeling uninformed and scared, so talking about the possibility of a c-section scenario beforehand may help.

C-section recovery takes time, nourishment and gentle rehabilitation. It is major surgery and its routine status shouldn’t diminish the physical trauma and need for recovery and care.

Your journey, your story

Know that this is your journey, your story. Give yourself time and grace, and consider yourself a strong and powerful survivor, never a ‘failure’.

However our births go, the people around us can make all the difference. We all remember the caregivers who made us feel safe, cared for and informed. Just as we may remember the ones who were rushed or brusque. Birth partners or a Doula can be a great comfort, advocating for you, asking questions or simply being there, holding and reassuring you.

It’s okay not to be okay and pretending you’re okay is not okay.

‘Mother’s guilt’, feelings of judgement and shame extend beyond birth. Whether or not we breastfeed, how we parent, how our body appears to have ‘bounced back’, whether or how quickly we return to jobs or careers. The multiple ways we can be perceived to fail feel endless and exhausting.

Birth shame sometimes means we tolerate symptoms we shouldn’t

Breathing exercises and techniques such as MUTU System to restore core muscle connection and engagement are vital. Hydration, good nutrition and daily gentle exercise such as walking to encourage circulation and healing will all help.

Women are enduring symptoms like incontinence, back pain or painful sex believing them to be inevitable consequences of motherhood. It’s as if these issues are further signs that we have simply ‘failed’ at birthing, mothering, or achieving a so-called acceptable or perfect body.

Please know that these symptoms can absolutely be addressed and that you deserve function, dignity and pleasure in your own body.

Support and community

Speaking up and seeking support is so important. Every woman deserves to feel confident and strong in her body, to feel empowered not weak, and to know that however you gave birth, you did good.

In this MUTU System community we believe every woman should be treated with dignity and respect and empowered to feel in control of their recovery or preparation for motherhood. 

Come and join over 90,000 MUTU Mamas and feel good about your body and what it is able to do. We’ve got you.

Wendy Powell, MUTU Founder, CEO and birth trauma and shame survivor

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